It seems a lot of people have the attitude of “I’ll believe it when I see it”. Understandably, one would want evidence and facts to back up their opinions. In today’s world, there is not a lot of acceptance for thinking outside the box, unless there is science to support it. Imagination is so undervalued. To me, that is a mistake- because I believe it’s what you can’t see that matters most. As Albert Einstein put it- “Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand”.
For instance: can you measure love? Sure, we know that dopamine and oxytocin are some of the chemicals behind the infectious disease, but do we really see it? It’s intangible, indescribable, and invisible. But we can all agree, it exists, and it’s why we’re all here. So, why do we naturally question life? We are so bewildered by emotions, mesmerized by outer space, and conflicted by the many notions of what happens after death. We intuitively imagine what we don’t know. We are curious about what we can’t see. Many of us crave a connection to something bigger than ourselves, because in our gut, we feel that something is missing from our lives.
Humanity is experiencing something in this day and age that is very different from our ancestors. Especially in the Western world, our disconnect from nature and each other is troubling. Our dependence on technology, social media, mundane routines, and searching for something to fill the void is not benefiting our mental health. We have a society that pressures you to live a certain way; to follow a specific game plan for success. Many of us feel controlled by our thoughts every day and night. We think that this voice in our head defines us, and what we are supposed to believe. Many of us look for an escape from that voice. We may turn to substances in order to numb that voice. Meditation is making a comeback- and it’s because people are realizing that they want to shut that little voice up.
When so much of our attention is focused internally, it is no wonder that we have a hard time changing our external environment. Look at the state of our planet. Look at the conditions in which more than half of humanity is trying to survive with. Pollution. Poverty. Inequality. Violence. There is a lot of suffering in the world, but this is not done intentionally or by choice. Our species just isn’t evolving to be connected to each other or our roots here on Earth. If people were able to see the bigger picture and take a step out of the normal tunnel vision, there would probably be a much better system going on. We would probably be more in tune with nature and our potential for happy, fulfilled lives. We would probably live more efficiently, creatively, and sustainably. It is time to rethink the way humanity is living.
In order to change the world, however, you must start with yourself. How can somebody take care of someone else if they are just trying to get through the day? Depression, anxiety, and constant impulsive thinking only clouds your vision. Too many people suffer from these conditions. Battling mental health can make it seem impossible to be happy, let alone contribute to the world around you. Unfortunately, it is considered “normal” to have depression, anxiety, and many other mental health issues.
It looks like we need a miracle to save us. I used to be pessimistic, and figured “We’re all going to die anyways, why does it matter?” and, “Someone else will figure it out, thanks Elon Musk”. But, I’m telling you now, wholeheartedly and sincerely, that there is hope. We are born with the ability to achieve our highest potential- and the key to unlocking this has been here all along, living alongside us. It is hiding in psilocybin mushrooms. Imagine how absurd it sounds that a naturally occurring, non-toxic mushroom, is illegal in most of the world- and yet it could be growing in your own backyard. A mushroom that has been used since humans first walked the planet, a mushroom that will clean the lenses you see with- a mushroom that will heal you, guide you, and evolve you.
Mushrooms- like air to breathe, water to drink, trees for wood- are a resource. They have been used for centuries as food, medicine, and to facilitate a connection to the cosmos. They are simply here on this planet for us to utilize. Fungi as a species are actually a key element for the survival of this planet, acting as recyclers of nutrients in order to sustain life. In fact, we would not even exist if it weren't for fungi!
By no means am I saying that everyone needs to try psilocybin mushrooms. My point is: psilocybin could be used as a powerful tool that if you seek, you shall find. It should be a normal thing to use as a way to heal, and expand the possibilities to reach your highest potential. I believe psilocybin, as a natural and safe medicine, will treat mental health issues more effectively than the current pharmaceuticals being used today. It has been proven in treatment-resistant patients with depression, that high doses of psilocybin can evoke emotions which have been suppressed for years. In turn, this allows the person to properly deal with these feelings, and move forward gracefully in their lives. Psilocybin mushrooms can clarify things for people, provide guidance and purpose, help with self esteem, and show you that there is so much more to life than what you see with the naked eye.
Describing my experience with these magic mushrooms is like trying to describe what love feels like. There are no words to explain it. For me, it was a calling. My intuition guided me to experiment with them after many years of feeling lost. I spent most of my life coping with anxiety. In the beginning of my adulthood, I began using cannabis and even alcohol. I had no direction in my life, no motivation to finish college, and wasted a lot of time procrastinating. Self-medicating numbed the voice in my head that I was uncomfortable spending time alone with. It made me lazy, dumb, and depressed. It was destroying relationships with my family, friends, and myself. The only thing keeping me going was the idea that there must be more to life than what I knew.
When the right time came, I took about 2 grams of dried psilocybin mushrooms by myself at home. I was excited, but nervous. I had no idea what to expect. All I knew was that I needed a new perspective in my life. The first thing I noticed after 40 minutes was that my thoughts disappeared. They just completely dissolved. This was something I did not think was humanly possible… maybe only for the enlightened few who have spent years practicing meditation. My vision was clearer, I felt euphoric, and everything was so pure and organic. Like, really organic and natural and real. I went outside and the moment it truly hit me was when I stared into the center of a succulent cactus plant. The leaves were almost spinning out of the center, growing infinitely. The pattern was eternal, and I realized that the Universe must be, too. When I looked into the mirror- it was not myself looking back at me- but a divine, magical creature with big, dazzling eyes. My pupils looked like portals into the center of the galaxy… like a black hole. I realized that the body I was in, was just a body separate from my mind. I understood that in this lifetime, I wanted to help save the planet. I wanted to heal people with psilocybin mushrooms. I wanted to study Microbiology to see the invisible world of micro-organisms and cells, and so that I could help investigate the uses and benefits of the vastly undiscovered fungi kingdom. Everything in my entire life finally made sense, and my wholehearted purpose was revealed to me. It seemed like nature had been trying to tell me this all along, and it was as though I could hear us both breathe a sigh of relief that the message finally came across.
What stood out to me the most, is that my fear of death completely transformed. In my life, I had always feared death and my loved ones dying. At the age of 14, I had to go to Cognitive Behavioral Therapy for this fear. It did not help. I took anti-anxiety medication and antidepressants, but they did not help either. When I was 17, my boyfriend at the time lost both of his parents within two years of each other. The shock and grief that came with this truly traumatized me. However, it also ignited my interest in spirituality and trusting that there is more to life than we know. Death is a part of life, just like seasons come and go. Psilocybin solidified this concept, and it made me realize that death is not the end. We are all part of a continuous life cycle. The Law of Thermodynamics supports this claim. “Energy is neither created nor destroyed, it can only be transferred or transformed into one form or another”.
At the end of the day, psilocybin mushrooms taught me not to fear the impermanence of life, but to appreciate it. They taught me that everything is energy, everything is alive, and we are all part of a universal connection. Just like the cactus, like the golden ratio in nature, like pi in mathematics; we are ever expanding, ever evolving. We are reflections of the matter and energy which the Universe consists of as much as we are the atoms and molecules which make up the Earth. Psilocybin mushrooms showed me that you create your own reality. Everything you do, every thought you think, has a vibrational frequency that affects your life. I learned that imagination is as valuable as science, and that the future can be anything you make it. My experience also showed me that magic really does exist, and it’s everywhere. I enjoy life more now, and live in the present rather than worrying about the unknown. The effects of my experience lasted for several months, and not a day goes by that I don’t thank the Universe for guiding me to where I am now.
Now, I can say with confidence that there is hope for the future of humanity and our planet. It may take time, trial and error, and some convincing. The ultimatum is this: to evolve as an intelligent species, we must learn to work WITH nature, not against it. We are advancing quickly with technology and science, but it is apparent that our biological intelligence is lagging behind in a more primordial state. I am optimistic for new research to support psilocybin as a breakthrough medicine. It is very important that this medicine is used in safe settings and with proper dosage, however, as too high of a dose can sometimes induce anxiety or paranoia. One thing is certain: it can be the most beautiful, transforming experiences of a lifetime. If you are somebody who feels like there is more to life than what you see, or that something is missing, you are ready. If you are searching for new perspective or personal growth, you are ready. If you want to connect more to others, get in touch with your inner being, and even the Universe itself- you are ready to experience the magic of psilocybin. And when the student is ready, the teacher will appear.